Posts Tagged ‘honesty’

I’ve been meaning to write this post for a long time. It’s kind of muddled in my head, though, and it was hard to make myself sit down and write. (There’s a book calling me right now! 🙂 ) I enjoy writing on the light side, and making fun of myself is a hoot, but getting personal is harder, hence the procrastinating.

So here is the thought bouncing around my head—what if, in my blogging, I’ve created a perfect family that doesn’t really exist? Perfection is a dangerous ideal. At times, I’ve sought to be the perfect wife and mom and fallen woefully short. It only leads to depression and despair because it’s unattainable, but also because it takes our eyes off of Christ when we focus on ourselves.

My vision for my blog is to encourage other moms on their journey. I wanted my writing to be uplifting—there is so much out there that is tearing down motherhood. I wanted to be different, but I realize that there is danger in only including the smiles. I’ve always tried to be open and real about my own struggles: my chaotic housekeeping methodsmy phobias, my dark past, my anger, but it just doesn’t seem right to share publicly the struggles that my children and husband face, so I’ve kept silent about a lot of the trials that we go through.

That’s one of the reasons why I’ve done so little blogging lately. I want to be real, but I don’t want to hurt my family by sharing what isn’t mine to share. After praying about this, I feel like I should keep writing, but that I also need to be open and honest and let you know that we face the same problems you do. Sometimes I lose my temper and yell at my kids, and sometimes, I lose my focus and forget that being a mom and wife is the work given to me by God. Sometimes my children talk back and they fight far too often. This is hard work, unbelievably hard, but it’s wonderful work too and eternally significant.

When it seems like you can’t possibly carry on, look to Jesus. Let Him carry you. Trust that He will.


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Trying to achieve and maintain a healthy weight has been a 20 year battle for me. I have made more resolutions than I can remember, or care to admit and each time I have returned to unhealthy eating habits.

It is a lot of work for me to lose only a couple of pounds. It will take me a month of painstaking diligence to lose a mere 5 pounds, and only 1 week to gain it back. Oh, how I hate to admit it, but I just gained five pounds in the past week. {sigh}

Which leads me to the reason behind this post. Sharing my struggles and goals is going to make me feel much more accountable than I would feel if I hadn’t shared this with half the world, (slight exaggeration. 😉 ) and should help me to stay on track.

My goal is: to not eat until I’m hungry, eat slowly and stop as soon as I feel full. This seems so simple and really it is, but busyness makes me feel rushed and I eat too quickly. Nervousness and insecurities make me want to eat when I’m not really hungry, and learning to feel those tiny feelings of fullness takes tuning into my body as well as the self-control to actually be able to stop at that point.

I’d like to lose 10 pounds in 10 weeks, but it’s more about the lifestyle than the weight for me. I’ll write in September and tell you how it went. Thanks for keeping me accountable. 🙂

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